Wilderness Journey

Another door closed for us this week. I apologize for the impersonal fb post, but I know a lot of you have been praying and walking with us, and I didn’t want to miss anyone.

We continue to journey through a wilderness time of our lives that began in June. I know enduring a wilderness time, one will either mature and learn or disintegrate. We have learned a great deal about God, our family, myself, and life in this time. I must also say I am weary and tired. I identify with Israel as they journeyed through the wilderness and wondered why God would do this. I know the feeling of desperation to hear from Him. I know the sense of silence on the other end. I know the questions which ambush the heart and mind regarding your identity, your value, your calling, your talents, your gifts.

I know the psalmist’s indignant prayer to “ANSWER ME, my God!” I know how to wonder how long will He stay silent. I know how, with Job, to hold on to the integrity of my heart while coming toe to toe with my God in prayer. I also know how to trust and say, ‘surely goodness will follow me all the days of my life.’ I know God is good. I know he works all things for my good, and He will do so.

Thank you so much family and friends for your prayers and encouragement. They give me strength for the long haul. God is good to me! You are proof of this.

Goodness is behind you

One of the most familiar passages of scripture is Psalm 23; especially if you have ever been to a funeral or memorial. The last verse says, “Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life.”

Have you like me always missed the most important word in that phrase; ‘follow’?

One of the unchanging attributes of God is that is he is good. God is always good and he is always in control of our lives and world. But we still face difficult and painful things in life. We still have trouble. We still have hurt and horrible circumstances we go through and come through. Where is the goodness in those moments?

One of the most often quoted passages reveal that goodness in the most painful moments of life. It is just behind you. It follows you all the days of your life. God’s goodness is coming. God’s lovingkindness is coming. It is always behind you.

We are promised nowhere in Scripture that all things that happen in life are good. We are promised no matter what happens, goodness will follow.

In ALL things, goodness will follow. It is always behind you and it is coming.

Pain and Gods goodness

True Story: Our professor asked the class a simple question:

“What do you think of when you think of God’s goodness?”

Slowly hands went up, and then a flood of hands shot up. It was story after story of hurt, pain, and suffering. Each story reflected how incredibly painful situations came and went, but there was a common thread of retrospect by which each person realized they were stronger having come through it. They each reflected on how they came away from those moments with a stronger understanding of God’s goodness.

After about 30 minutes of story, I sat amazed that all these stories of pain faced and gone through were sparked by a question about what we thought of when we thought of God’s goodness. We were not asked about pain, evil, hurt, or why bad things happen to good people. We were asked about God’s goodness, and it sparked reflections on painful points in life.

I came away wondering if we could understand God’s goodness until we have come through things like this.

How incredible is God’s goodness!

I am screwed….UNLESS

I cannot get enough of the song “Always” by Kristian Stanfill. (go here for the lyrics).

Today the song played so well with my entanglement time.

Psalm 27 says, “I would have despaired UNLESS I had believed that I would see the goodness of the LORD. In the land of the living. Wait for the LORD. Be strong and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD.”

I wrote to Bryleigh (and in my journal to myself):

Always believe and trust God’s goodness…no matter what happens. If you can stubbornly trust His goodness, nothing can bring you so far down.

That unwavering trust and belief will help your heart be strong and courageous. Because in everything you face you will be able to say, “It is going to be okay. I do not know when but my God WILL come through; he always does. I will just wait for Him to come through; He always does.”